someone to love
answers to questions
what the fuck am i doing
do i want this
what should i do
what can i do
where am i going
i deserve better
i settle + make the shit work
i deserve the best
but i don't seek it out
or give it to myself
i am paralyzed
i need to move
i can move
i just don't
i wonder what it will take
i wonder when
i need to jumpstart
i am afraid i'll never stop
+ i have trapped myself
endlessly

[more old musings. how i love bring them back to light to breath again. i am setting them free. but they are still so true and huge parts of me. obstacles i have yet to conquer. i continue to struggle with them. read this and it reminded me of now. also of AM. i am dedicating this to you. xox]