dress for success

not knowing what tomorrow will bring
is paralyzing
uncertainty if i have what it takes
to make it through
is haunting
its conjures a deep dark monster
so deep in my soul
stirring in my core
rumbling fear of being
whole
fulfilled
complete
i forget he is there fighting my every move
my movement toward
action
happiness
success
if life were as simple as my mother's old adage
you are what you wear
i would have been my dream
long ago
but slaying my demons
my anxiety of acheivement
attainment
accomplishment
grab me in a choke so tight
i cannot breathe
ominous whispers is my head
'she isn't good enough'
'she can't do it'
trepidition of self
i agonize over strength
of character
confidence
and capabilities
all the while knowing, it is
in me
reality just strains
the very torsional properties of purpose
channeling energy
yearning for more
discontent is always my first step to progress
patience is a virtue
focusing my appetite
on the craving that never ceases
knowing i may not feel the power
letting the calmness wash over me
peace swirls in my head
quietness returns to my heart
revelation of truth
it is there
i have been wearing it
all
along